No, I really understand, I still remember what it was like right before we lost Nutmeg. Now any time one of my cats shows the slightest bit of sickness I tend to freak out. I was really anxious when we brought Basil in for his radiation therapy. Fortunately, he seems OK now, but I also know at some point something is going to happen since Cookie is now 15 and Basil turns 14 in April. I don't think my family has managed to have a cat past 15 before. We lost Marmalade to cancer at 14. They've definitely slowed down, especially Cookie who spends the majority of the day sitting on the couch sleeping.